The sounds coming from the bathroom are not pretty. Chugging splats bubble,
Groan, spray filtering.
the whine is wallpapered, stiff and melting.
The smell, oh the smell.
Bemused gave off the bewildering.
Can’t. No, can’t.
Mother, with great sighs, slowly makes her way into her bedroom and shuts the door. In my bedroom, pale light filters through the wood blinds on donkey my window. Gentle, not too bright ribbon.
I lie on the bed, under blue weed covers. I was sleeping but now that’s gone. My brain buzzes. Fine. So don’t do it. It’s her decision. The can’t lets the air out of the balloon to a slow relaxation for her but now I’m wound up.
What’s next? What to do after that can’t? Her stress floated down the hall and settled on me. Too much to think about. Too much to query to God. I need some wisdom here, because this impasse is looming large on the horizon, if you get my drift.
The house has gone quiet. My black sleeping mask is in my hand instead of on my face. All is still. Except the racing thought trails of my mind, up over mountains of possibilities down into ditches of nasty consequences of seemingly innocent choices. It’s all food, right? What’s the big harm here? Well, that is the question, isn’t it?
Pick your poison, Ma’am. Step right up into the parlor of innocent nutrients. FDA approved, so what could possibly be harmful? It’s the amazing machine of the intricate mysterious inner workings of the human body. Absorb this. Slough off that. Change, swish, chug, mutilate, smash, transform, squash, mutate, evolve, utilize, reject and package into that passenger train of garbage that came in and is now garbage headed out.
I know what I’d do if it were me. Identify the perpetrators and stop giving them admittance. Mother can’t seem to understand that concept. It’s food. It’s her favorite foods. How could they possibly be causing these difficulties, these distresses?
There’s a straight line connection, but she can’t see it. What a relief it would be if that connection didn’t exist. I’d take that world.
Imagine what it would be like if Adam and Eve hadn’t eaten that apple? Hadn’t decided they wanted the job of god in their lives? Everything was perfect before that, so we’re told. It’s hard to imagine a world where there’d be no decay, no disease, no killing, no hatred, no suffering.
No acid reflux, no food sensitivities, no teeth that break off and require oral surgery. Sounds like paradise, to me.
Oh well, reality beckons. We don’t live in paradise.
I don’t know what to do for her, God. At least you know the body you made and just ‘cause bodies get faulty, you don’t. My stress ebbs away and I sleep again. Cell phone vibration and ring-tone startle me awake. I fish the phone out from under my pillow. An 800 number. Not answering that.
No point is lying here. Might as well see if I can print up a list of foods that won’t aggravate Mother’s GERD. Maybe she’ll react better to the CANs instead of the CAN’Ts. Thanks, God. That dozing helped. I feel a little closer to paradise. Amazing what rest can do.